The dentist scraped and told me to use a gum tool for my
teeth are receding. Okay. I have a tool for that. Walgreen’s pharm was at lunch
so I need another trip to get the eye drops. Somehow left the store with ice
cream. Beautiful sunrise. Red and dramatic. Hope I can walk today. The pain
gets to me so quickly and walking is my longtime favorite activity. I will clean
the sunporch for sure. Hollie s bringing her vacuum cleaner. Mine is not
sucking.
Another dark wet windy morning. The dogs wouldn’t go out.
Chuck and Hollie have gone to the casino for breakfast and a few games. That’s
their recreation. I get to go to the
dentist later for a routine cleaning and then to the drug store to pick up my
eye drops. Wowee, two things to do. Yesterday was cozy and I was comfortable.
No anxiety or restlessness. I worry about getting used to the lack off
activity. Is it a good thing or a bad thing.
I actually exceeded the hour and it felt good. I will repeat
the activity today for my house sake and my wellbeing. I have a tidy business
cubicle free of unnecessary paper and open to view. And a clean bathroom. Today
will be kitchen drawers and sunporch floor. Plus I sang for a few minutes. I have
no breath and in just a minute I loose volume. Only cure is more singing and
stretching my chest open. I feel that the depression cloud is lifting.
Dark and stormy morning. No dawn at all. A day to be inside
as if that were a different scenario. Ii am calling on myself to do better
today as if that were a different start
up. Well, I can do better than food and TV as it is becoming increasingly clear
that the depression is deep and I can climb out. Maybe for one hour I can do something that feels healthful.
Maybe tidy up the closet or scrub the bathroom. Just one hour.
Rosalie and I commiserated about our fatigue and pledged to
be kinder to ourselves. Her plans for 2021 are all based on personal wellness.
That’s kind of all there is to focus on at this time. Pouring rain from a
pineapple river. Another indoor day and I am sure I can do better than TV and
food. I enjoyed every bite of the Mexican food that Hollie brought yesterday.
We each ordered two meals so we have more today. I can do a crossword puzzle.
Thank heavens for my dogs or I would have been completely
alone yesterday. I felt that it was a waste of a day of my life. Lots of days area
as quiet as that and I don’t get down on myself but yesterday I felt robbed. I must do better today for my mental health.
I can bundle up the documents and get
new file folders. I like a business arrangement where I can keep up to date. I can
break the snack and nap cycle.
Happy Friday after a noisy night with a high-strung dog
shaking and whining. I’m sorry about the
shot guns totters and fireworks shooters. Doesn’t change the year. It will be
the same routine. I plan to have a nap or two and good food choices. No resolutions
as I’m already living close to the bone with little to change or add. I enjoyed
putting up the new calendar om HSU. Good photography and heavy paper. Yesterday
I ate from the garden: kale, carrots beets, and onions.
