No miracles. Just another day inside. And today too. Smoky
and I don’t want to go to the market. My mood just bounces around and it’s hard
to focus. I ignored the political farce and glad for it. The Facebook reports
say I saved myself grief. Today I can push moving and use the rebounder often.
Maybe I’ll jump on every commercial on the TV programs that I’ll choose to watch.
Meanwhile, oiling my ears and hoping for an end to the clogged up hearing.
It reached 95 yesterday and took time to cool down. Hot and
smoky again today. I had a sonogram of my aorta this morning and a phone
conversation with my PA. Nothing else on the agenda. It’s uncomfortable outside
and nothing to do inside. Darn. I want something new. Something stimulating and
exciting. I wonder what that could be.
More than TV, Facebook, and e-mail. I have a brain. It has come up with amazing
stuff. What can I put together with what I have.
Too hot to go for walking. Imagine waking up in C, City to
75 degrees! More heat to come and I don’t like it. Karen offered to come and
get me for my massage this afternoon but I want to walk if there is any breeze.
I also enjoy walking after the massage and feeling my body. No progress yet
with clearing my ears. I have oiled them four or five times a day and no relief
. I am weary from straining to hear.
Feeling better today. I’m ready to get busy and use my
energy productively after a day of doing nothing . I have a need to show
something for a day of my life. I will walk to the post office and send off a
check followed by a trip to buy a loaf of bread. Then the yard will call. No
need to water but the weeds liked the rain too. I still need to sit down in the
quiet and plan a new routine.
Serious talk this morning about the nature of daily life and
what to do to make it better. The truth is we are not going back to what we
used to do. I miss singing in church, and communion. They will probably not be
part of the service in the future when we can at least congregate. No volunteering
since both of my places include visitors from far off places. I hope that the Tea
and Stories group can find a way to come together..
Beautiful morning. I’m not feeling rested or well. Laundry
going, floors to attend to and walking are on the agenda. I want to get over
the ear plugged up thing. No progress yet and it is tiring. Getting outside and finding yard
work will help. Might dig potatoes. The last of the Asian pears came off the trees. They have been
juicy and delicious. Time to sit with my journal and design a life routine that
is more healthful than constant TV. I’m worth more.
The best part of yesterday, besides the rain, was picking up
Mexican food in Smith River. The medical appointment didn’t work and I was
disappointed. The ear washing was supposed to have followed four days of oil
use but nobody told me. It was a waste of time and mileage. Now I am determined to fix it myself. I’m
tired. Had anxiety in the night. Today will be quiet and appreciative of what I
have and the clean fresh air. New day, brand new attitude.
